The World and Society

Want to know if someone is right for you?

Ask yourself a simple question.
“Can I live without him/her?” Ask yurself the question a few times. 99% of the time the anawer will be yes. So make sure yu can find the one that is a no.

2 years since we’ve seen each other. 2 years of avoiding each other, and we finally met yesterday yet, we walked away from each other like we were strangers. 

I remember…making you cry so many times. I remembered when my friends made a “joke” that I got in a car accident. You cried…and that’s when we started having this little war of pranks and jokes. I remember always getting into dumb fights with you…and making you cry. Then you wouldn’t answer me or say anything to me, and I’d have to keep apologizing. 

I remembered…when I was talking about breaking up…your friend told me you cried on the bus on the way to school, and wouldn’t eat.

Through all those tears there was one good time you cried, and that’s because of a long poem I wrote for you. Talking about growing old together, getting married by the sea…and dying by the sea. When I gave you that you cried. Other than that I can’t remember anything else.  

Honestly, sometimes I want to get into some sort of big accident or coma that makes me forget my past or lose memory. Only so I can start a new life. It’s crazy because I won’t remember who was close to me and who wasn’t, but the ones that really care will try to get me to remember them. I also think losing my past will bring my to a whole new happier life. 

Sometimes I’d wish I’d just die off. Maybe get the load off of my family’s back. I haven’t done anything to help my family or friends. I’m not dependable or a good person. I can act and try but I know I’m not. This world doesn’t really need me. What am I doing with my life…Haven’t finished school, can’t even get a decent job.

I always thought to myself…I’d regret it if I were to die. I want a strong will to live, so I can do more things. I want to do so much before I die…but now when I think about it…there’s nothing for me to do. Life has too many complications and sophistications that are just so troublesome. I would much rather live alone somewhere secluded with no one…and forget everything if that was even possible.

I don’t want to be burdened by a continuous sadness that I can’t erase. I don’t want to have any emotional distress. I gave up school because I had too much on my mind. I gave up when I had no more to look forward to. I take things really seriously even though it doesn’t seem like I do. Sometimes I pity myself…for making myself seem so helpless but really I’m just…insane?

Either way…I don’t have that will to live any more…I guess I’m ready to go whenever now. With that ending..I won’t have to deal with anything ever again.

What did I do
What did I say
To make you hate me so much
Where should I go
Nobody knows
Maybe I lost my touch
When I look in your eyes and I see you cry
I’m thinking how can I make this different.

When a guy says “you deserve better”, it doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you or care about you any more. He’s just scared that he’ll continue to hurt you, and can’t bare to see that happen.

Fuck you. You’re too stupid to see.

(Not noted towards anyone lol)  

Its okay
Its alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive
And forget it
And then you promise me i wont regret it
But i do
Its not right
Because i turn around and let it slide 

Trying to forget someone you loved, is like trying to remember someone you never knew.